Something enormous in my eye

Here's a question I often ask myself "how do I know I am close to God?"

Sometimes I even ask "how do I know I am far from God". I think the easier question

to answer, for myself, is How do I know I am far from God? 

Recently I was deeply convicted of different feelings and emotions. I believe 

whole heartedly that these thoughts were what pushed me away from God's presence. 

This is how I answered that question..

I began to find specs in everyones eyes around me, which meant I was finding major faults 

with those around me.  I was so angry at these people it consumed my mind during times I should be focusing on my children, home and husband.  The sad part was and is that most of these people are lost.  Isn't it so easy to try to fix someone else rather than ourselves, le sigh. 

We, as followers of Christ, need to not hold lost people to a holy standard. The hard part is looking in the mirror and seeing the even bigger specs (or logs) in our own eyes(selves). 

 To be honest I think it was more of a distraction. I immersed myself in things of this world to drown out the current struggle I am in. Sure my struggles can be justifiable. 

For example, who hasn't had a child start school that absolutely fought you tooth and nail to 

go to school? In all reality these "struggles" are just excuses. People the spiritual warfare for your purpose and soul is real. Oh so real. 

So in short here's what happened. I began to feel deep bitterness towards those

around me who are struggling with sin. I felt angry that they can 

sin and still survive in this crazy world. Not so coincidentally, I also felt distance from 

my Heavenly Father.  I must say this if we as Christ followers and we don't remember to 

"love one another" 

we will easily lose sight of our own walk with God and begin to work against Him. 

In turn here's the answer to my question. You will know if you are far from God if you 

do not see those around you the way God does. Sure this world will tell you its ok to find fault

It makes you feel better. However we were called to a narrow path in life. Its not popular at all to follow God. This means the more I stay up to date and distracted by what's now the less I feel I'm doing anything to please God. I like to stay current with the news and what not. I just know I need boundaries to stay more in the WORD than in the world. 

Feel free to comment thoughts or questions.

Topics: testimony, struggles, bible